All throughout my life I have battled some form of anxiety. When I was a kid I played outside, was active and didn't notice it much. In high school I always tapped my pencil. Never sat in my seat much. It wasn't till I was marries and my wide mentioned that my twitching, constant toe tapping and at night the shaking in the bed could be because of anxiety.
The moments in hishchool where the world would slow down and I would race my thought. Who would have known those were panic attacks. I sit here in bed with my left and right feet only doing what I can describe as "wringing your hands motion". Heart rate increases and my eyes dart back and forth.
So if its not my heart its my back if its not my back its in my head blah! When can I be normal? Well not normal normal just not always in pain /out of breath/weakness?
On a light note took mandy to see circ de sole tonight amazing!